I was in trouble for weeks since I am back from Chiangmai. I just try to develop my thesis as my planed. But the reality went bad.

They were few weeks of terrible since then, house owner where I stayed wanted to increase rental cost, so I and my sisters got to find other place. And the bad news came at the same time, my 86 years old grandma were serious sick with her liver cancer. I and one of my sisters had to go to see her in Savannakhet, we stayed there for 1 week, took care of her, she was with oxygen, couldn’t breath her self, eat and sleep either. She held someone’s hands all the time, other hand touching her stomach for painless, two people stay awake all day and night, I was one.

After one week, I came back to Vientiane to continue packing things for moving, we took big part of our things to new place and I also apply for a job at the same time, on Thursday I got a call from some one I know, asking for joining the research team which they will do in Champasack on 6^th of August, it was a great news for me but I did worry if there is something happen with my grandma at that time. And the next day, Friday night I continued packing my things again until 11: 00 pm, attended to take them tomorrow morning, felt tired and sleepy. Strong wind blew hardly in the midnight, light and sounded of thunder out side the windows made me sleepless and I felt worry of something with no idea what was that. A about 12:30 I got a called from my dad that my grandma was in coma. I felt confuse with what to do and realize that I could do nothing at that time just prayed for her to stay longer with us. At 01:05 I got another called from my dad telling that my grandma had passed away_ I do regret that she had gone forever, but I was glad at the same time that she has no pain any more. I had to go back to Savannakhet again to her funeral, since I heard she had gone I didn’t cry at all, until I saw her coffin and her pic, my tears came out, I couldn’t believe that she had gone and will never come back again, I still talked with her last week and held her hands, give her food and took care of her and from now on I will not see her in the bed she always laid down. If the “next life” is the truth, I thought that she will got better life with great health and wealthy. This life of her, she had done that great things for people and I think that what she had done will give back to her in her next life.

I stay until every thing was done for funeral and then I got a call form GDG to confirm about research as mentioned. I do happy with that cz I might have chance to work with Concern Worldwide Organization, that mean I will got a job that relate directly to what I have been studying.

Anyways, I am now at the new place and waiting for the day to Champasack as a volunteer of research group, I will gain the first experience from here and my destination is “GENDER SPECIALIST”.

I know that my thesis is the huge task to face for this year and I’ll fight with it, I’ll try my best.

Dear friends bless for me!