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ເລື່ອງນີ້ຂ້ອຍຂຽນຂຶ້ນຕອນຮຽນຢູ່ Woodson Adult High School in USA ເນື່ອງຈາກວ່າເລື່ອງລາວຂອງຂ້ອຍ ອາດຈະຊ່ວຍໃຫ້ຄົນອື່ນມີກຳລັງໃຈເວລາມີບັນຫາເຂົ້າມາໃນຊີວິດ ອາຈານຈີ່ງໄດ້ຂໍເລື່ອງນີ້ໄປຂຽນເປັນປຶ້ມ ເພື່ອໃຫ້ນັກສຶກສາລຸ່ນຕໍ່ໆໄປໄດ້ອ່ານ
My name is Khamprasert Vongxay. I was born in Vientiane, Laos. My terrible life started after I finished high school. Here, I will tell you when I finished high school until I finished university. Especially, when I was in the final year of university.
I have thought about becoming a dentist ever since I was a child. So, after I finished high school on June 23, 2000, I went to National University of Laos, Faculty of Medical Sciences and I was in the Department of Dentistry in my third year. During this time is when this problem came into my life. I usually had problems with my studying, my love and my family. Sometimes they came all at the same time.
Each time when I had an exam, I studied extremely hard. I usually went to bed after midnight. I was exhausted. Some days I slept only 1 or 2 hours. When I practiced at the hospital, I didn't sleep all night.
I also had problems with love. I fell in love easily. I was broken hearted many times throughout the year. It was like my hobby. Nobody loved truly me. Many girls said I was the best. But why didn't they love me? I thought girls love bad guys. My family also didn't understand me. My dad died when I was thirteen. My mom went to America in 1999. I lived in the dormitory with my friends. My mom never understood me. When she called me, she usually asked me "Do you have enough money”? I usually said "Yes, don't worry," but I didn't. I had three sisters in Laos. When I needed money, I had to tell my sisters. They rarely gave me anything.
I was in National University of Laos for six years. I needed money from my mom three times, but she never gave me any. She always said "If you need money, you should tell your sisters, because they keep my money." It was true. I used my mom's money. But I got it from my sisters. My mom was right. But she didn't know my sisters abhorred me. They never listened to my reasons. It was impossible if I told. So, I didn't. My mom believed in my sisters more than she believed in me. If I told her, she also didn't believe me. So, when I had problems, I usually solved them by myself. Sometimes it was wrong. Other times it was right. Many times I went to the temple to pray. I talked with Buddha. Then, I felt better. Six years of university I made two mistakes that I couldn't solve by myself because it used a lot of money. Everyone in my family said I was very bad. I knew. I was wrong. I confessed. I didn't intend. They were accidents. But nobody listened to me.
August 25, 2006, it was a special day for me and more than two thousand students because it was the day that I got a diploma. I got a Bachelor's Degree of Dentistry. It should have been the happiest time of my life. But it was the saddest day for me. There were thousands of people around me, but I didn't see any people from my family or cousins without my friends. I bought some flowers for myself. I was waiting for my sisters for four hours. But nobody came. Nobody called me and nobody said, “Congratulations.” If you were me you would know how I was. I went to my dormitory at noon. I was in my bed. I felt lonely. It was like there was only me in the world. I thought a lot. I cried. My friends were celebrating. But I was in tears.
My life was terrible all the time. I hope you are not like me. Although, there were many bad things in my life, they made me stronger. I never hated my family. I hope there might be a day they will understand me. I hope my life will be better. Now I still don't dare to talk with my family when I have problems.
I think I am like a candle, people need only when it is dark. My family is like the time when someone doesn't know how to use. My love is like a pearl in the ocean.
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